I'm tired. I do not enjoy this game anymore

Why? Because I've got a super big losing streak that lasts for about 1,5 months. In the past 50 games I won 15 and lost 35. I can blame my team for most of the loses, but ofc I am performing worse and worse from game to game. Instead of trying to win and pushing myself to the very limits I often think
"nah, our heroes draft is shit, the game is lost, I'll just lose the game quickly, move to the next and lose it too".

And I have reasons for that

Heroes draft in every games are shitty as they can be. Tinker 3 pos, spirit breaker carry, pudge mid etc, while our opponents get balanced and strong heroes that combine good. My teammates are buying shit items like shadow blade on templar assasin, they cannot farm, they cannot fight, they cannot everything. And the worst of all – they don't communicate with me. Sometimes I can guide my team to the victory – how our heroes should position themselves on the map, when do we need to farm, when to push, who we need to focus in fights and we win. Not always, but often. BUT in most games your teammates don't say a single word, they don't hear you and you can't act as a team.

So, I'm blaming my team for everything and that means I am a bad player myself?

Well, I can say that I'm underperforming in last games because I lost the will to win. But when I play on core roles I ALMOST ALWAYS get the highest net worth and level in our team. My KDA is also first or second best in the team. When I play on suports I am winning my lane in 60-70% percent of the games, I place good wards, I am saving my carry, I am harrassing enemies till they almost cannot farm. But that's simply not enough, I cannot win the game alone. There's no point of being best in the team while the rest is worst in the game. Countlesses lost midlanes in my team, countlesses two 0/15 guys at 10th minute. Countlesses carry players, who have 10k net worth at 40 minute and etc, you all know this.

I mean, I'm playing only not ranked games at 1000 mmr with 10k behaviour, why it is SO hard to win a single game?

I cannot get a win streak of 3 games in a row for more than a month. And now I don't want to. I really hate this game and system, which puts cyber athletes in enemy team and a real newbies in yours. I hate feeling my uselessness. I do not enjoy playing dota anymore even with my good friends

I want to forget everything I know about dota, delete it and never ever play it again