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This is pretty much venting but I decided to make a question since I keep having this problem.

Recently I came back to playing Tarkov after caring about irl stuffs and playing other games. And I still have no idea how I should approach this issue.

This probably sounds stupid but basically when I play Tarkov I find myself heavily shaking hands, legs and having very fast heartbeat. I just become so anxious and frustrated in the experience. Looking at the deploy countdown screen automatically makes me to shiver. Even watching a streamer playing the game on Youtube is something that involves anxiety.

I don't rage or get mad when I die. I become frightened. It's kinda what it feels to get jumpscared in a horror game.

I'm not even a new player. I have more than 550 hours in this game and understand how to play it. This is like the 4th wipe for me. But this anxiety continues. Survival rate rarely hits more than 30% and I almost never had more than 1 mil. Being unable to play as a PMC by only having a few hundreds of rubs in stash with almost nothing happens every wipe.

Yet I find myself keep coming back to Escape From Tarkov then repeating what I mentioned above. Would you mind giving me some advices?