I’m really discouraged right now. :/

I’m really discouraged. I absolutely love this game, the modding and fighting and mechanics are one of a kind. But i literally just die and die and die and die. I know that’s how starting out is, and I’m sure I’ll get Hella people saying git gud and yeah I agree but how the fuck am I supposed to do that when I get one tapped every fucking round at the outset and don’t even have a chance to shoot back? I don’t see where I need to improve? Im careful and quiet as I can be I’m learning factory and customs well enough to not need to look at a map constantly. Im making like 0-500xp per game and I’m struggling to make that up in gear and money. What helped you guys get past this point? If you’re just gonna tell me to get better do me a favor and go fuck yourself. I’ve got like 1-3 hours a day I can play but I usually just stop after an hour or so because I’m literally making zero progress. I’m just discouraged. I really enjoy this game it’s so unique and all the details are so accurate but I’m really having a hard time finding reasons to keep playing.