What do I do?

I want to play, but I just can’t bring myself to. I’ve been playing for a week or so now, I got an Anaconda yesterday. And now… the game feels really pointless. I can go mine… to buy what? A bigger ship that i don’t have unlocked yet? I don’t even want a cutter and the combat has me really bored and frustrated, I don’t want a corvette. And there’s no way in a million years I have the patience to grind 5 billion for 2 weeks to get a capital ship. I can go fight, but I’ll make absolutely nothing and just leave frustrated. I can go taxi in robigo… or i could… not do that. I never want to do that again. Wasted so much money outfitting and engineering my python to do it in two jumps and while working to actually make that python i did have fun, but of course it didn’t even make as much as mining after full rep and is mind numbingly boring. I could go explore, but that’s not why I play this kind of game, that doesn’t particularly interest me. I don’t gain anything.

I really just don’t know how to move forward with this game and it sucks, because it seems really cool and I did have fun. Maybe it’s just not for me?