Feeling absolutely worthless about myself in this game.

After years and years of rage quitting, blaming the rng and bad luck for my performance, I finally let go of my ego and just admitted to myself that I’m a shit player.

I stopped raging in chat and looking for excuses as to why I died after making a terrible play.

I managed to get consistent unicum stats after every session of around 20+ games.

Felt amazing and really proud of myself until today, where I was really excited to jump back in with my fresh mindset and come out with some amazing stats again.

Played 15 games in the Tier 7 leo and could barely get green stats.

It just reminded me that in reality I’m just garbage. I was probably just getting lucky with bad enemy teams.

I have tried everything. I’ve watched countless youtube videos by professional players, mirrored their playstyles after observing livestreams, hell, I even got some private tutoring from Kajzoo.

But it’s no good. I genuinely tried so incredibly hard to improve but it feels like I’m hitting my head against a brick wall.

I didn’t even rage at my garbage performance. I just kind of shut down a little and got really depressed and upset at myself.

I’ve been trying to get good for years, but I genuinely think I’m just a lost cause.

How do the super unicum players do it? How do they perform so well, and so consistent?

Long story short, I genuinely believe I’ll never get to where I want to be. And for once I’ll let go of my ego and anger, it’s not the games fault, it’s because I’m trash at it and I’m not good enough.

Source: https://www.reddit.com/r/WorldofTanks/comments/zmyta6/feeling_absolutely_worthless_about_myself_in_this/

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