I don’t know what to do anymore

Hi. This post may sound stupid, but I don't care. I'm a below-average player, maybe worse. I've got like 300hrs, this is my second wipe. I have a 30% (now just dropped to 29%) survival rate. I can't seem to stay above 1mil roubles no matter what I do. I only play solo. I've tried all loot runs, blah blah blah, whatever. The problem is dying too much? Well, I'll play as carefully as possible in Woods and get some fat loot, only to get one tapped by a scav I didn't hear or see while I was surv kitting. I lose nearly every gunfight and I guess the argument there is "get good" but I can't really do that when everyone is kitted out of their minds. Yeah, I know it's the end of the wipe but still, it'll be back to this in a couple of weeks in the next wipe.

The reason I'm being dramatic is because Tarkov is the only real game I get the urge to sit down and play, and video games is my biggest hobby. At the end of most sessions, I usually feel unsatisfied at best. CoD and Battlefield are boring. Star Citizen is another game I'm trying to get into but it doesn't scratch that itch that Tarkov does.

While Tarkov usually affects my mood, I don't lash it out on other people and it doesn't affect my grades. I just wish I could sit down and have a good time on a video game, but the only game I want to play is Tarkov for whatever reason. I don't feel like uninstalling, because that'll just make me bored. I really want to get good at this game, but it feels like any PvP I try to do ends up with me getting one tapped from around the corner without even seeing the guy.

What do I do? Do you guys have any recommendations for some other games I should play, or any tips on how I can maybe improve? Thanks